This is me with another nervous breakdown
My pressure dropped, this body went with it
Memory fails, I'm feeling claustrophobic 
I scream my silent pain in this big plain
There's no one here
Tell me who is there now
Who is there with you

I'm taking no calls unless it's her voice
I'm seeing no one unless it's her
I open the mailbox every hour
Maybe I'll hit the postman
I want to hear some love words 
But not it that dyslexic voice
No I won't tear apart for you
But I was given no choice

I guess I was trying to keep me alive
But once I was dead there was nothing to do beside
Picking me up and lying me down
Waiting for some angel 
To wake me and say to me 
"Hello. Don't be scared. I want you to know, you're not dead."

Kiss me, is this a dream?
Should I believe it?
Please promise to me that I'm not going to get hurt this time.

Am I too good for you, am I just paranoid?
Should I clinical ou should I speak louder?
Maybe I should close my eyes for years
And wait for the strongest feeling
Out of all of the feelings
to raise
from
you.

Am I real? Are you real? Is this real? What's real?
Am I real? Are you real? Is this real?

Tell me, what's real?

I was so lost in my pain, fear was melting my brain, 
I was counting the days to insanity, I was afraid to move myself
Afraid to hurt myself, more than I had until that day
Everything I believed in, everything I fought for
Was now underneath my feet and my heart beat
Was so gone, couldn't be felt by anyone
So alone it gave me the creeps
My drugs got me in bed went up to my head And I really don't wanna depend
So I'll stick to

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end 
Play pool again
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends

Never thought it would be like this
No one told me it would be like this
I'm amazed I'm amazed with myself
And my brain and my pain 
And my pain and my veins
Are delivering it to my health 
My self-confidence was broken while my trust was taken
And it left me with an empty life and this knife
Rests on the middle of my bed, I think in all the things she said
Close my eyes and sleep
All these drugs in my head, it seems I'm already dead
And I really don't want to depend
So I'll stick to ...
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end 
Play pool again
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Can't smoke anymore can't drink anynmore, still I do it, I do it again
Lost everything I had, Far from mum, far from dad
I thank God for my good, good friends
But where's this God that I mention? Where is He right now?
As I die as slowly as I can? All my plans, went down the hole
My life has no goal, and I wonder if this is worth it
But my friends took my hand
Helped me to lift myself again 
And that's why I really love
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end 
Play pool again
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends