No, you don't want me to be there…
To kiss your eyes, caress your hair… or kill that pain away
As pain is my companion, solitude my guide
Your sweet affection solely offers me a threat I cannot abide


Yet you'll lose yourself in me… in me 

Bleed in my arms wounds within
Fall from grace as I offer you sin
Sacrifice yourself so frail…
This pseudo-love is as good as betrayal


So place your love in the palm of my hand…
where temptation lies within… that something you've yet to feel
And as I close my fist and awake your sleeping fears 
Without forbearance I will quench my thirst of your crimson tears 

You've lost yourself in me… in me 

Bleed in my arms wounds within 
Fall from grace as I offer you sin 
Sacrifice yourself so frail… 
This pseudo-love is as good as betrayal 

Weep for promises which all died 
A drop of tear for every lie 
Love forever torn away… 
I am only to cherish your pain 

…I am only to cherish your pain… 

Again the sky has fallen down on me 
Once more a world has crumbled down and over me 

And yet in some twisted way 
I enjoy my misery 
And in some strange way 
I have grown together with my agony 

I feel home in despair for I dwell in grief 
and I feel home when the air's too thick to breathe 
and I feel home anywhere human lives are going down the drain 

For as long as I remember life has been hard 
I guess they have "misery" written somewhere in my stars 

For I have mourned for so damn long… 
that I've forgotten what it was for 
Everything has gone so wrong 
that I really couldn't think of anything more 

I feel home in despair for I dwell in grief 
and I feel home when the air's too thick to breathe 
and I feel home anywhere human lives are flowing down the drain 

I feel home in despair for I dwell in grief 
and I feel home when the air's too thick to breathe 
and I feel home anywhere the light of day is drowned in heavy rain 

Yet I know the worst is still to come 

So many times I have brought you down 
that I have already lost all count 
and I seem to be doing it again 
No matter how hard I have tried 
I have crumbled time after time 
and kept failing in the end 

Sometimes it feels it would be better for you all 
If I ceased to exist or was never born at all 

So many times I have let you down 
shadowed the shine of our sun 
and drowned you in tears and misery 
that it is hard for me to see 
how you can after all these years 
still be standing by me 

Sometimes it feels it would be better for us all 
If I ceased to exist or was never born at all 
Sometimes it feels it would be easier to fall 
than to flutter in the air with these wings so weak and torn 

She was no longer precious to me… 
I guess my hate grew much stronger than my love for her ever did 
(I was) so tired of chasing that person who made me feel loved 
and as we were embracing I cut and spilt the dearest blood 

I'm praying for her soul as this blood on my hands stains me whole… 

You were my life, from you I fed of 
And now parted by knife - the suicide of our love 
So callous and frigid was that stillborn soul… 
yet no other half could ever make me whole 

You promised: "…'til death do us part", and then you made a stone of my heart 

And with the last rays of the setting sun the loveless pulse fades away 
No more beating as one, no longer burns the flame 

Gone are the times when I felt alive 
Gone are those nights with you by my side 
And now here I stand as the shadows grow deep… 
With the death on my hand at your grave I weep 

We were one yet not the same… 
Once passion abundant, now pain 

And with the last rays of the setting sun the loveless pulse fades away 
No more beating as one, no longer burns the flame 

…Love laved with stillness like the grave in my heart 
and all the reasons huddled in your seeping blood… 

And with the last rays of the setting sun the loveless pulse fades away 
No more beating as one, no longer burns the flame 
And with the last rays of the setting sun she bled her love away 
No more beating as one, no longer burns the flame 

I have come a long way where I started from 
but I'm still not even close to where I'm going 
(and now) I can no longer see the shine 
that has been lighting up my way 
I cannot feel its glowing 

The fire in my heart is dying 
and the zeal I had is gone 

This path that I've chosen's a rocky one 
Long, hard and frozen it has become 
Each turn that I've taken on the way 
has only led me back to Hell 
I am dying down… growing weaker now 
It could seem that I'm doing fine 
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside 

Why did I ever choose to go this way 
The question I keep asking myself all the time 
I guess it was my instinct for self-destruction 
that pointed me down this way 

The fire in my eyes is dying 
and the dream I had is gone 

This path that I've chosen's a rocky one 
Long, hard and frozen it has become 
Each turn that I've taken on the way 
has only led me back to Hell 
I am dying down… growing weaker now 
It could seem that I'm doing fine 
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside 

Baby, have you seen, there is a snake in our paradise 
A serpent that's wriggling between us 
and freezing our feelings to ice 

And with each drop of blood we bleed because of this 
something so precious dies and it feels it really is... 

Killing Me Killing You 
Killing all we have 
As our loves wither away 

Burning Me Burning You 
Burning us to ash 
Drowning us in a sea of flames 

Darling, do you feel, there is a storm coming our way 
The burning light between us is already starting to fade 
The fire in our hearts is smothered by the rain 
and the crimson flame of passion turns into something gray 

And with each drop of blood our shattered hearts ever bleed 
something so precious dies and is lost eternally 

Killing Me Killing You 
Killing all we have 
As our loves wither away 

Burning Me Burning You 
Burning us to ash 
Drowning us in a sea of flames 

Each teardrop from your eyes 
makes something inside me die 
Each of these days that draws us part 
takes a piece from my heart 

Kill me kill me kill me again with your love 
and chase the storm away 
Bring me bring me bring me the end with your love 
and haunt the demons away 

Killing Me Killing You 
Killing all we have 
As our loves wither away 

Burning Me Burning You 
Burning us to ash 
Drowning us in a sea of flames 

Kill me kill me kill me again with your love 
and chase the snake away 
Bring me bring me bring me the end with your love 
and haunt the serpent away 

The darkness comes out of her shell… 
Yet another cold night in Hell with all the pain 
The dying light is losing its glow 
And my last glimmer of hope now fades away 

It is starting to rain again 
I'm coming closer to my end with every breath 
The creepy shadows are growing pale 
And the rising glow brings along the sense of death 

I can feel Her presence now 

Dead Moon Rising… 
Bleeding red light over the sea 
-I hope this time She came for me 
-I hope this time She sets me free 

My wounds are open wide 
The freezing wind blows right inside and feels like ice 
The eerie glow fires up the sky 
And She takes away my sight with Her shine 

I can feel Her all around 

Dead Moon Rising… 
Bleeding dead light over the sea 
-I hope this time She came for me 
-I hope this time She sets me free 

Dead Moon Rising… 
Bleeding dead light over the sea 
-I hope this time She came for me 
-I hope this time She sets me free 

Yet another morning 
that feels like this 
Yet another life's bitter kiss 

It has been like this for… I don't know how long 
I only know that at some point 
it all went wrong 

I don't remember much from last night 
but still far more than I would like to 

I'm floating downstream that damned river again 

What can I do now except continue 
and open a bottle once more 
What can I do now except see this through 
and float with the stream, off the shore 
- see where the river will take me 

When I needed you, you weren't there… 
now I need booze like I need the air that I breathe 

With each drink I'm drifting further away from your world 
the further off I get the harder it will be to return 

It has been like this for… I don't know how long 
I only know that at some point 
it all went wrong 

Floating downstream that damned river again 
The river that's distilled from premium grain 

What can I do now except continue 
and open a bottle once more 
What can I do now except see this through 
and float with the stream, off the shore 
- see where the river will take me 
- see where the river will take me 

It feels that your love for me 
is slowly turning to dust 
It seems that our union made of iron 
is starting to rust 

I hate life 
I hate this shit 
I love you and I hate myself 
I hate our world 
and everything in it 
I hate loving you 
I hate 
I hate 

Give me a reason to live 
one more day 
Let me just once more feel 
your light through the rain 

It feels that my love for you 
is eternal, never-ending 
but it seems that you're not receiving 
what I have been sending 

I love life 
I love this shit 
I love you and I hate myself 
I love our world 
and everything in it 
I love loving you 
I love 
I hate 

Give me a reason to live 
one more day 
Let me just once more feel 
your light trough the rain 

Give me a reason to live 
one more day 
Let me just once more feel 
your love through the pain 

It has now spread itself all over inside me 
all the way to the brain and down to my knees 
My time comes closer with each day it lets me see 
- with each night the pain keeps me from sleep 

Life has given me much - maybe taken more 
but those good times were always worth waiting for 
When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved 
with bitterness and joy 

Pleasure and pain; Heaven and Hell - my memories 
What a long and strange trip this has been for me 
What a short and strange life this has been 

It has given me much - maybe taken more 
but those good times were always worth waiting for 
When it's time to take leave of this world 
I will leave with bitterness and joy 

What a long and strange trip this has been for me 
What a short and strange life this has been 

It has given me much - maybe taken more 
but those good times were always worth waiting for 
When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved 
with bitterness and joy 

Life has given me much - maybe taken more 
but those good times were always worth waiting for 
When it's time to take leave of this world 
I will leave with bitterness and joy 

I gave and gave - gave all I had 
I took and took - all I could grab 
I had it all and I had none 
Now the game is over and it's all gone 

My heart is worn out to keep beating 
My lungs exhausted by all this breathing 
My mind's too tired to keep grieving 

I was against and I was for 
I wanted less and wanted more 
I won I lost, I lost and won 
Now it's all over and I am done 

My throat is too sore for more screaming 
My eyes too swollen for more weeping 
My wounds are too dry for more bleeding 
My blood too drained for more streaming 

My heart is slowing down 

Long short is life is short and long 
Strong weak am I am weak and strong 
My crop is ready for the Reaping 
My being ready for releasing 

My heart is slowing down